I firstly want to issue a big apology to you all, especially if you've been waiting all this time for a commission from me. It's my own fault for not keeping in touch with each of you and I should have handled this better. I finished possibily one of the busiest semesters I've had in years and a large part is because I finally got a part-time job as a banquet server in a hotel. However, my boss tends to schedule me to work more than 20 hours in a single weekend. Not only did I fail to do what I needed to do here but I also suffered academically because I figured paying rent and my bills and having a place to live in was more important. I've disappointed you guys and some of my professors and there's no excuse for that. I'm sorry.
I unfortunately have no new art to show as I hadn't been able to draw since the last time I posted on this account. My dear friend Nat is gonna help me get back into shape and post art again. Commissions will be the top priority but I will say this now: Once I've finished and given all the commissions I owe, I will be temporarily closing them down. I don't want a repeat of the last few months and it's not fair to you guys to have to wait so long. I will announce when I do have more time to draw but as of right now, I don't know what my schedule will be like.
You can skip the rest of this if you want. A lot of this talks about a traumatic experience I had last week and how I personally feel. Basically, I'm being a whiny baby and may or may not be crying as a result of this event.
I had perhaps the worst year in a long time and went into the new 2016 year the worst way possible. Last week, I was in my first car accident. My friend and I were well into the intersection when another car struck us and spun us several times. She walked away with a bruised elbow and collar bone, I walked out with a bruised lower back. By far the scariest thing I had ever been through, especially when I remember trying to breathe after having the wind knocked out of me. It could have been worse and I'm thankful nobody was seriously injured or killed. I hated that I needed xrays but the doctors insisted that I get them since I expressed severe sensitivity. I learned a frightening new twist, and that is my spine is literally twisted alongside with the scoliosis that I already knew I had. I was more scared of them saying I need surgery to correct this lifelong issue I grew up with more than whatever injury I had sustained. Upside is no surgery but my back was bruised. And boy did it hurt the next few days. It's manageable now but still hurts and this is day 5 since the accident. I have work starting next Wednesday so hoping what happened doesn't hurt my work performance. :')
My mom worried about me getting hooked onto the meds I was prescribed with. One is just ibuprofen but the other is a muscle relaxer. I've hardly taken them due to how ill I've been feeling. I literally have been feeling the side effects of the muscle relaxer so I've just been dealing with the pain. :')
I went into the new year in so much pain, sick to my stomach, and nobody to take care of me or keep me company. I couldn't stop crying on New Year's eve. I kept stuffing my face even though I kept getting sick. I wanted to drink the alcohol in my fridge but knew I couldn't because of the meds. I ignored calls and text messages. For the first time, I really felt alone. Since that day, things have been a little better. Still wish I wasn't alone but I don't feel like I did.
I don't really have an account I'd consider my home page on dA anymore, hence why I decided to post all this. I feel like I no longer have a place I can just let out my feelings anymore so please allow me to keep this here for a while. I don't mind if you ignore it, it's just words I just wanted out and I know there's still more being kept inside but I need the time to feel at peace again. Thank you. :')